..;)..

It's a beautiful night
We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby
I think I wanna marry you

p/s: my favourite song right now.. ;)

..introducing my new baby..

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 p/s: hehehehhe

..si penangis itu adalah anak aku..




this picture was taken when I was in confinement.. and I thought she is so adorable and the cutest..ahhh..cuba skang nih ko nangis.. tak hingin aku nak ambik gambo.. hehehehe

 


Saya ada seorang anak perempuan yang suka menangis..
Dari baby sampai la dah 5 tahun, this July.
Masa baby, PIL saya carik sampai 6 bomoh untuk cure her so called sawan tangis.
Ghuper2nya biler saya bawa jumpa specialist, she has problem with her intestine.
Ingat biler bagi special formula, she will stop wailing.

Sangkaan kami adalah meleset...

Habitat anak saya nih, memang suka menangis.
Bila bangun pagi, dia telah bernawaitu..sahaja aku bangun hari ini adalah untuk menangis wailing..tantrum.. jenis menangis yang kesakitan macam kena dera padahalnya tak pun tapi sahaja jer nak menangis dan bagi ummi saya darah menggelegak dan heart palpation..

Macam tulah lagak niat sesudah celik mata setiap hari.

Bangun2 jer.. terus menangis..
Biler ummi terkejar2 nak uruskan 2 orang anak pada subuh pagi, pun menangis.
Lambat buka pintu, menangis..
Ummi terlambat hulur tangan nak suh amin, menangis..
Dulu masa berbotol.. lambat buat susu jer menangis..
Masa baby, lambat buat susu.. terus kerang tak berenti menangis dekat sejam..
Nih dah bottleless..lambat buat oat..menangis hentak-hentak..
Lambat buat nescafe utk cicah roti lembik..menangis hentak-hentak..
Ummi buka gate tangga..menangis hentak-hentak campak barang sebab dia yang nak bukakan..
Lepas main, suruh kemas..nangis2 hentak-hentak baling barang bagai sebab tak nak kemas..
Lambat letak nasi, menangis hentak-hentak..
Nak berak pun nangis..
Nak kencing pun nangis..

Ibarat kata semua benda yang nak di buat..sebelum buat apa2 kena nangis2 dulu.. baru ada thrill..
Baru leh tengok Ummi jadik ejau..
Baru syok tengok Ummi nangis pulak..sebab terlampau menahan sabar..

Hari-hari kalau tak dengar suara Ummi Si Kuntilanak nih berkumandang memang tak sah.. Izzah punya rasukan ablasanya.. Tone kalau monotone tuh aku leh tahan lagik.. nih high pitch..nyaring.. jenis leh kuar taik tinger...till the extend kalau dia mengamuk.. aku laki bini larikan diri.. sebab dia leh angkat horse yang little tikes tuh selamber dia jer.. kalau kena kat kami.. dia pulak yang kena back hand kang..

Sampai ada satu hari dia punya tantrum macam kena masuk hantu.. mengamuk macam nak gi rusuhan dah.. FYI, Izzah kalau mengamuk..dia jadik kuat semacam.. Masa warded dulu, masa nak masuk drip.. ada 6 orang pegang dia.. 2 MA..2 nurses lagi 2..aku ngan kie..Begitu kuatnya..

aku punya hangin tak tahu nak cakap la.. sebab for no reason ko nak ngamuk.. memang lah aku hangin.. aku paling pantang kalau nak mengamuk.. nangis bagai takder sebab..memula aku slow talk la jugak tanya kenapa.. lagi berlembut lagi kuat dia mengamuk..dekat setengah jam menangis bentak2..hentak2.. menggelupur.. baling2 barang.. Nih kalau aku penampaq nih memang confirm aku masuk lokap punya..

Last2 aku azan.. sekuat2nya..

Allahuakbar! Allahuakbar!.... dari mula sampai akhir..

Terus dia diam...sebab terkejut...

p/s: Tapi tak daye la pulok aku nak azang sokmo..

Hola people..

Miss me much? Hehehehe.. adalah mode perasan di situ.. heheheheh.. i went for a course in sabak bernam for 4 days.. the first day, arriving at KL central.. and while waiting for the bus to arrive... I was freaking bored with not much to do in KL central. I can go online, but with the luggage and all.. I don't think that I am able to do that.. Arrived in KL central.. first thing first.. I have to eat!

And yes.. absolutely at 10.59.. I went to mcD.. hoping that I can grab some of their Big Breakfast.. coz honestly.. I've never eaten anything on the breakfast menu ever since they introduce in Malaysia.. Yes.. I never had any of them. At one time I did crave for it while preggie with Imie and Izzah but you know Kie.. The rest is a history.. FYI mcD in Mentakab dun hev the breakfast menu.. The nearest I can go would be the one located in Genting Sempah RR..

*wink*

Okeh back to KL Central.. the last time I went there is during my single days.. where LRT.. STAR.. MONORAIL..KOMUTER  is my transportation.So after years of not going there.. I'm a bit of jakun arriving there.. Seriously.. in fact I took monorail to there.. while inside the trains.. there's so much changes in KL that makes me awe..

{Harap maklum.. mood untuk skipping adalah tinggi walaupun ayat adalah ke laut}

There's nothing much to do at KL Central.. besides eat, drinks..wondering around a bit.. eat.. drinks.. melabur.. eat..drinks.. and the rest continue.. Luckily there is a bookstore there that actually sell books.. Not just papers, magazines..stationeries.. they have books too..

Praise to Allah! I've just been rescued..

Bought the Fire and Ice by Julie Garwood.. they have other books of Miss Garwoood too but I settle with ONE only.. hehehe.. they also having a massive sale on old stock books.. And that includes, cooking..cakes.. and other too.. for RM20++ only for a hardcover book! If only I was not going somewhere.. and if only that I was loaded with luggage..Definitely I will buy the 5 books that was on sale!

Sib baik la.. kalau tak menderita nak naik turun tangga..kejar bas bagai...

In the book Fire and Ice, Sophie Rose is a crime reporter at a major Chicago newspaper and the daughter of Bobby Rose, a charming gentleman and big-time thief. When asked to write an exposé about her notorious father, Sophie quits and goes to work at a small newspaper, covering local personalities such as William Harrington, the 5K runner whose trademark is red socks. Those socks—with Sophie’s business card tucked inside—are practically all that’s found after Harrington is killed near Prudhoe Bay, Alaska, seemingly in a brutal polar bear attack.
Sophie heads north to investigate, but danger follows in her wake. After one attempt on her life, she’s assigned brash but sexy Jack MacAlister as a bodyguard. But Sophie and Jack will soon be fighting more than their growing passion for each other. Powerful forces will stop at nothing to prevent the exposure of the sinister conspiracy Sophie and Jack are about to uncover.

p/s: My 2nd book for this year.. bare with me k.. you know I'm a hopelessly romantic kind of person..heheheheh ;)... and happy birthday my dearest yong Noorin Mohamed Hairiri.. may Allah bless you alwez.. love you sis.. ;-*

..fuckin` perfect!..

Made a wrong turn

Once or twice

Dug my way out

Blood and fire

Bad decisions

That's alright

Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood

Miss "no way it's all good"

It didn't slow me down

Mistaken

Always second guessing

Underestimated

Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever, ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin' perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean

When you talk

About yourself

You are wrong

Change the voices

In your head

Make them like you

Instead

So complicated

Look how big you'll make it

Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game

It's enough

I've done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons

See you same

Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever, ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin' perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me

The world stares while I swallow the fear

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer

So cool in lying and I tried tried

But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics, cuz they're everywhere

They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair

Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that?

Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,

Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less then, fuckin' perfect

Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel

Like you're nothing you're fuckin' perfect, to me

You're perfect

You're perfect

Pretty, pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less then, fuckin` perfect

Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're fuckin` perfect to me

p/s: I know that I will not be good enough for you.. but then hell.... neither is you..

..macam-macam cerita..

Aku seorang yang punya Blood Disorder Syndrome. Tapi nasib baik, anak2 aku tak ada penyakit itu. But then both of them are G6PD when they were babies. Tapi gaks.. I am so gratefull when Imie is no longer diagnose with G6PD deficiency. Tapi juger.. Izzah remains as G6PD carrier..

You see..masa memula Kie and Me nak kahwin memula dulu. Kami took blood test. Eventhough Perak masih tak wajibkan blood test waktu tuh..but then we still took it.. just in case.. Buatnya tetiba kang penyakit benda, dah la Kie kurus kering.. tetiba apa connection ntah...hehehehe When the test came out, both of us were requested to see the doctor..

Doctor said we might get Thalasemia children if we still continue to get married. This is because, both of us are hb low.. and worse walaupun aku yang bapok besar panjang galah nih.. I don't have permanent blood count. Maksudnya..sometimes the blood count reduce.. and sometimes it can be normal.

Apa puncanya? Sometimes it can be the routine sekarang nih yang tetiba jer orang yang tak ada penyakit tetiba ada penyakit.. ataupun faktor makanan.. atau pun genetic. In my case, all of it. Aku eczema. Apa kaitan? Owh ada.. aku cepat immune pada ubat. Maksudnya kalau aku sakit kepala, and I took panadol and cured.. selepas pada itu in 1 jangka masa.. I can't take panadol already coz it already immune.. dan aku kena berubah kepada ubat lain.. for example pain killer.. uphamol500 ...uphamol650.. and the routine continues.. until la dalam jangka masa yang akan datang baru lah aku boleh makan panadol balik..

Macam eczema aku.. satu hari biler sakit tuh.. aku leh ambik satu losyen biasa and it cured.. kadang2 aku letak jer minyak gamat and it cured.. tp benda2 nih tak tahan lama.. so aku kena tukar ubat lain plaks yang lebih berkuasa sbb it doesn't work anymore... so ambik la econazine.. baru ok.. walaupun setube kecik nearly rm40 tapi kena beli gaks kalau tak akan teruk..

Huh dah melalut..

Kami tetap berkahwin.. sebab semua dah sedia.. tinggal kursus jer..apa2 pun Allah yang berkuasa ke atas sesuatu yang bakal terjadi. Lagi pun doktor tak lah cakap secara detail.. dia kata mungkin jer.. sebab aku ngan Kie ada symptom2.. cuma kalau nak sure kena ambik test yang lain pulak..

Alhamdulillah.. Allah masih sayangkan kami berdua.. kami berdua dapat 2 orang anak yang comel dan kuat mengamuk.. :) Izzah was born with purle complexion where I was overdue. Masuk incubator and immediately put for 2 type of drips. Dia ada masalah penghadaman makanan. Dia tak leh nak hadam dengan baik. We bought special milk for her. Untuk susu sajer pada waktu tuh, we spend nearly RM300 di mana satu tin kecik Novalac AR adalah RM25 dan tahan selama 3 hari sajer. Yang paling memilukan biler Temerloh takder susu tuh, dan aku travel dari KL (masa tuh kejer kat KL and was a weekend mom) bawa susu tuh 4 tin seminggu ke Temerloh naik bas..

She was hospitalised a year later because of her prob.. dan dijadikan bahan ujikaji macam2.. sampai aku mintak discharge dan bawa ke Pusrawi KL untuk rawatan pakar. I was 4 months old preggie with Imie masa tuh.. Imie was diagnosed with G6PD deficiency yang membawa dia kepada masalah kuning yang agak teruk. He was in NICU for 7 days. And sebab dia G6PD his reading mencanak naik dari 115 ke 311 in 1 day. Nasib baiklah tak sampai tukar darah. Orang lain lepas beranak, anak masuk NICU terus balik. Aku tak. Aku jaga anak aku walaupun aku tak berapa betul. I had 27 stiches and almost meroyan sebab tak berapa nak sihat.

Moralnya aku nak citer kat sini... walaupun macam mana payah pun seseorang tuh untuk meneruskan kehidupan disebabkan dugaan demi dugaan yang diterima.. tapi aku percaya pada takdir.. pada qada dan qadar.. percaya kepada Allah yang maha berkuasa.. walau bagaimana pun aku di duga.. and yes.. aku pernah di duga dengan teruk.. tetapi aku tak pernah ceritakan..? :)

Allah akan sentiasa dekat dengan kita.. No matter what.. Kalau kita percaya kita paling teruk di duga teruk.. percayalah when I said.. kat luar sana tuh lebih banyak yang di duga lebih teruk. Kita kena bersyukur atas dugaan yang di terima..

I'm not perfect.. percayalah... but trying to improve myself everyday. dan yang paling penting aku redha.. dan terasa diri ini begitu kerdil dan kecik sekali biler nak di comparekan ngan dugaan yang orang lain terima..Jadi adik kakok abe semua.. bersyukur dan redha dengan apa yang terjadi.. Things happen for a reason, and believe it or not.. there's alway a rainbow shining its colourful glit at the end of the day..

p/s: Baru lepas membakar 200 muffins.. and thank God I've got it right..

..diaperless and bottleless..

I'm a proud ummi when my doter has been diaperless for over a year now and recently bottleless for a month.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!

When she was 1 year plus.. immediately after warded 3 days for virus infection..

Macam mana aku train?? Owh aku tak train.. Tapi saiko yang lebey. Hahahahaha.. ummi dia orang kan pandai saiko.. Izzah dah tak pakai pampers for over a year. Tapi dah tak pakai pampers day and night recently nih jer.. baru seminggu tak pakai pampers pada waktu malam.. So kira macam accomplish jugak la.. Mencapai target mak nih lah jugak.. Among my other resolutions for 2011.. Alhamdulillah...

when she was 1 year plus..masa nih Kie gi merakit.. aku pregnant with imie..gi KL tgk my parents nak gi Umrah..

Diaperless dah accomplished! Pasal bottleless?? Memang susah sikit pada mulanya. Tapi macam biasa.. ayat2 saiko kena lebey sikit. Biasanya kaum2 mak nih.. selalunya pandai saiko.. Tapinya aku nih tak pandai saiko kat laki.. kang aku kena saiko balik.. Takperlah leh apply skill kat anak2 jer.. muehehehehehe

Hari pertama bottless tuh.. memang rusuhan la.. Tambah macam korang tak tahu.. Izzah adalah pentantrum tegar! Kalau dia merusuh.. masyaAllah.. aku laki bini pun leh angkat kaki selamatkan diri masing2.. Kalau tak confirm cedera kalau still lagi stay kat situ.. Tapi sib baik hari pertama tuh, besides rusuhan and all.. she manage to do it!

 You know, walaupun marah.. baran.. merusuh.. tapi biler aku offer susu.. dia kata tak nak!!! Yerrrrrr.. dalam kepala ada batuu juga duduk.. kecik2 dah egooo.. kang aku tampaq kang naya jerrr... Macam2 dia kulikan aku.. nak cicah roti bakar dalam nescafe laaa.. nak cicah roti lembik dalam nescafe lah.. nak minum oat la.. nak mandi shower kat atas la.. nak pakai baju princess for tidur laa.. nak pakai baju pusing untuk tidur la.. kang aku selegi kang bersepai muka...!

Tapi tulah.. sib baik aku inherited sikap penyabar mak.. walaupun tak 100%.. tapi adalah gaks unsur2 penyabar tuh... Pasal tantrum Izzah nanti aku buat entry kalah mati punya.. A mixed entry of sad, happy etc.. Maleh nak citer lelebey.. sampai aku ngalir air mata lah.. punyalah tak tahan aku nih.. Ingat senang ker aku nak kuar air mata nih.. isk isk isk...

Masa gi KLIMS2010 baru nih.. aku nak ambik gambo sport rim.. tetiba muncul budak bertuah nih..

Apa2 pun.. lega sikit anak dah tak menyusu.. Tapi kena prepare kepada loss of weight a bit.. lepas tuh dah ok sikit.. Yang penting.. biler dah tak menyusu.. vitamin kena bagi.. especially yang ada lysine.. so that dia leh tambah nafsu makan tuh.. Sib baik budak.. kalau tak confirm aku bagi obimin jer.. heheheheh

So far Izzah memang banyak makan.. tapi skang nih sejak dah sekolah.. kat umah nakal ya Rabbi.. tapi kat sekolah ok.. lepas tuh dah tak mau tidur siang.. tuh belum lagi part merusuh ngan mengamuk menjerit2 terpekik2 lagik.. isk isk isk .. 3 hari 3 malam pun tak habis aku nak citer perangai Izzah nih.. silap2 leh sampai berbulan lamanya..

p/s: Biler jadik parents masa untuk menjadi singa adalah di luar kawalan.. tapi pandai2 lah ko nak handle kelionan itu.. sebabnya kalau tak leh handle.. maka ko jadiklah suspect 15999 tuh..