.TOLONG SAYA!.

Dear beloved frens,

I received a phone call just now from my mom. Telling me and the rest of the family to pray and doa for the safety of my youngest brother. He just been warned about TORNADO WARNING that are coming towards his place in US.

So fren, I need a favour from all of you to make a doa for my beloved brother safety. Saya memohon jasa baik kawan2 sekalian untuk mendoakan keselamatan adik kesayangan saya yang kini berada di Amerika Syarikat kerana bertugas, supaya dijauhkan dari malapetaka yang menimpa..

p/s: Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, selamatkanlah adik aku MOHAMAD FIKRI BIN MOHAMAD HAIRIRI yang kini mencari rezeki di Amerika Syarikat. Semoga dijauhkan dari malapetaka dan musibah yang menimpa. Sesungguhnya kepadaMu Ya Allah..aku bermohon pertolongan dengan rasa rendah dirinya... Aminnnnnnn.....

.a chemical pregnancy.

A chemical pregnancy is like a cruel joke. You take an early pregnancy test around the time your period is due that shows a faint positive. Naturally, you get excited and start spreading the joyful news that you're expecting. Then, a few days later you get your period and the doctor says, "It was just a chemical pregnancy."

Meanwhile, you're left confused and possibly devastated. The term chemical pregnancy sounds like a false positive pregnancy test, as if you were not really pregnant at all. But the truth is that a chemical pregnancy was indeed a conception and is actually a very early miscarriage.

What Chemical Pregnancy Means:

The term chemical pregnancy means that the miscarriage happened at a point that a missed period and biochemical tests, such as an hCG blood test or a home pregnancy test (checking hCG in urine), were the only evidence that you were pregnant. The miscarriage happened before an ultrasound could have shown a gestational sac.

When the pregnancy develops to the point that ultrasound could confirm the existence of the pregnancy, the term becomes clinical pregnancy. Thus, a chemical pregnancy would be a miscarriage before the fifth week of gestation -- or within about week after your missed menstrual period.

Symptoms:

The primary symptom of chemical pregnancy would be if you begin to have vaginal bleeding shortly after having a positive pregnancy test. Blood tests reveal low hCG levels that are decreasing rather than increasing.

Causes:

Doctors believe that chemical pregnancies happen for the same reasons as most other miscarriages –- probably because of chromosomal abnormalities in the developing baby. It is hard to know for sure what causes these early miscarriages, however, because it is nearly impossible to retrieve any samples for chromosomal testing.

Frequency:

No one really knows how common chemical pregnancies are, but some researchers have theorized that as many as 70% of conceptions end in miscarriage. Women who are not actively trying to conceive and not closely watching their menstrual cycles may have chemical pregnancies and never know it; in other cases, chemical pregnancy could be a reason (but not the only possible reason) why a menstrual period arrives a few days late.

Physical Recovery:

Chemical pregnancies happen early enough that they have little effect on women’s bodies, and in many cases, they can be mistaken for a normal period that is a few days late (or even on time). One 2007 study found that the bleeding after a chemical pregnancy is sometimes even lighter than a woman’s usual menstrual period. The bleeding from a chemical pregnancy might be accompanied by more cramps than usual also, but recovery should be fairly swift.

Trying Again:

With a very early miscarriage, many doctors will say that it’s OK to go ahead and try again right away. Other doctors recommend waiting to try to get pregnant again as a standard answer after all miscarriages, no matter how early. Talk to your doctor about what is right for your specific situation

Grieving a Chemical Pregnancy:

In many cases, chemical pregnancy might put you in a weird situation from a grieving perspective. Some women don’t feel very sad over chemical pregnancies, whereas others are completely devastated emotionally. People in your life might not recognize the validity of your loss, insisting that you are wrong to grieve because it happened too early for you to get attached to the pregnancy or that “it wasn’t a real baby.”

Regardless of what anyone says, a miscarriage is a miscarriage. You do not have to justify your grief or compare it to anyone else’s grief for it to be valid. A chemical pregnancy was still a pregnancy, and for many women, it’s still a loss of a baby and grief that will always they will carry for their entire lives.

It’s also OK to not be too sad about a very early miscarriage and to decide you just want to try again. Everyone reacts differently to the situation, and there is no single, right emotional response to chemical pregnancy.

If you do tend to grieve chemical pregnancies deeply, and you are actively trying to conceive, think about perhaps waiting to test each cycle until your period is actually late. This way, you do not necessarily have to know about very early miscarriages. Many doctors recommend against early pregnancy testing for this reason.

p/s: Yer bukan chemical romance jer ada chemical. Pregnancy pun ado. Tapi I'm ok. Walaupun masih seram sejuk.. sakit bakang dan lower abdomen.. tapi doktor kata not to worry. And due to my age.. aku kena buat pap smear..then kena ambik extra precaution..tuh jer..

To Filla my fren.. CONGRATS!!! AKU HAPPY UTK KO!!! And I do respect kat ko, sbb aku tahu... Kepada rakan2 3G, JUJUE, LENNY DAN FILLA... CHAIIYOKK!!! GAMBATE!!!!.. Dan to WADA dan NURUL, semoga selamat semuanya..dah dekat dah nih.. Aku dah kecundang dah.. hehehhehe Takper ada hikmahnya..

.u.n.t.i.l. .i.t. .s.l.e.e.p.s.

Where do I take this pain of mine?
I run but it stays right by my side

So tear me open, pour me out
There's things inside that scream and shout
And the pain still hates me
So hold me until it sleeps

Just like the curse, just like the stray
You feed it once and now it stays
Now it stays

So tear me open but beware
There's things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me until I'm clean

It grips you, so hold me
It stains you, so hold me
It hates you, so hold me
It holds you, so hold me
Until it sleeps

So tell me why you've chosen me
Don't want your grip, don't want your greed
Don't want it

I'll tear me open, make you gone
No more can you hurt anyone
And the fear still shakes me
So hold me until it sleeps

It grips you, so hold me
It stains you, so hold me
It hates you, so hold me
It holds you, holds you, holds you until it sleeps

I don't want it, want it, want it, want it, want it...No

So tear me open but beware
There's things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me 'til I'm clean

I'll tear me open, make you gone
No longer will you hurt anyone
And the hate still shapes me
So hold me until it sleeps
Until it sleeps

p/s: It's unfair isn't it? To live in a world that you no longer have faith in it. I'm too distraught right now. It's to painfull and yet I can't explain myself. Just be with me.. and hold me until it sleeps..

.kek cawan utk di bawa ke umah mertua.

Biler mau ke umah mertua pada hari minggu.. haruslah buat sesuatu untuk di makan sebagai juadah minum petang. Biler skang sedang dalam mood kemaruk nak menge'BAKE' pada setiap minggu, maka setelah digodek dan bersesuaian dgn bahan2 yang ada dlm lemari BAKE.. maka terjadilah kek cawan ini..yang simple dan wa cakap lu..sangat full sengkak walaupun makan SE jer.. heheheheheh

Dan selepas bake, maka teriak la sang anak ku Izzah, "NAK CAKE! NAK CAKE! NAK CAKE!!". Sekali aku tonyoh muka ko ngan kek nih kang, baru padan muka.. tak sabar langsung.. Padahal baru keluar dari oven.. Panas merening lagik.. Lepas tuh tercampak la kek itu, sebabnya panaskan?? Aku?? Sabar jerlah.. huhuhuhuhu

Dan aku juga kemaruk nak ambik pic menggunakan camera dabak ku itu. Yang biler habis jer masak kek, Izzah mesti kata.."UMMI, GI AMBIK CAMERA! AMBIK GAMBO KEK NIH!". Adus haruskan Izzah pun turut minat bake dan camera satu ketika kelak.. Walaupun gambo ini takderlah bokeh sangat.. Tapi practise makes perfect kan??

Muahhsss!!

p/s: Dah lama aku tak p/s bagaikan.. Ya Allah.. minta2 la esok Mr Kiey nak gi umah Filla esok.. Aminnnnn!!! Owh yer..gelaran MZ kepada sang laki, dah ditukarkan kepada Mr Kiey, since ada gaks blogger gelar sang suaminya MZ.. kang kata aku tiru laks.. tak kosa tauuu.. Auwwww!! Dan ejaan Kiey tuh bukan rekaan aku.. y ditambah sbb sang laki jugaks sorang yang gedik.. Biler chat..mesti type Kiey.. awak ingat saya tak tahu yang!!!?? I know what u did last summer laa!!

.kuih dan balang raya.

Yer yer aku tahu story basi.. But still masih dalam bulan Syawal..so consider raya story still on la kan.. Lately aku sibuk giler ngan kerja ngan facebook...errrr apakah?? Heheheh mintak maap.. aku baru register facebook..dan sgt jakun haprak dan lain2 lagiks.. muehehehhehe

Okeh citer pasal kuih raya aku.. Alhamdulillah.. 100% aku buat sendiri.. Jimat kos pentadbiran.. dan habis yer...

balang raya aku yang dah berusia 5 tahun

bekas kepada balang raya aku.. yakni bekas buat hantaran..muehehehe

from left: choc chip, tat yang sepatutnya digulung tapi aku malas lalu terap jer..dan sarang semut..

from left: biskut nestum, agar2 kering MIL dan choc rocher

Ada satu kuih lagik takder dalam gambar.. yakni the cornflakes yang resipinya turun temurun.. hehehehe.. OMG! Sangat penat raya kali ini.. semua orang berduyun2 ke rumah kami yang sempit dempit itu.. Dan sgt penat memasak tetiap ari.. Even this week ada lagi yang datang.. tapi kami jamu kuih jer.. itu pun tinggal beberapa ketul jer.. Hehehehehe Makan jerlah..